This few weeks, i had been thinking alot. Aiya standard, just encounter a question that you dont know how to do, the worst always comes to mind. Practically in the end, even before promos started, i have already drafted a plan B. What combi to take if i retain, what course to take in poly, even things like what cca to join if i go poly -.- I thought of should i even just proceed on j2 even if i should promote. Im like whats the point if you just scrape through j1 and struggle right from the start at j2.
Regardless of what, i told myself to put in my best, regardless of what results, i dont want to regret. I couldnt recognise myself, cos i swear i had made a 360 degree change from the good old ole sec sch days. I had never mug so hard in my life before, and faces the possibilty of failing in my studies for the first ever time. I also told myself, even if retain die die also dont want to have tuition. Cos i want to promote with my own effort, do it myself, and i want myself to adapt to independent studying. How to learn otherwise?
But still i know in my heart, regardless of all this shit, i still may retain. I neglected everything for chem, thought i could overcome it, but still i dont think i can make it. wtf. Maths suffer terribly as a result and die lor two h2 all like that. Econs? 50-50?
Whatever it is, i know i have given my best shot, and i wont regret whatsoever. Although i hate it if i retain even though other people can do it, i swear im pissed with myself for losing, but if fate produces this conclusion, i have to take it. graciously. I just hope that efforts would at least be justified a little.
Well, promos is over, though i still have another battle on hand. Promote or retain, jc or poly, but lets play play play for now.

Its showtime! :D