Hello world, i'm back after like 3 years. Decided to come back cos I really have alot in my mind and  just wanna talk to myself and look back at this changing 3 year.
And so, I finished my NS like 2 months back. I miss it badly. I mean most guys should miss it somehow or rather despite criticising it perputally. Come to think of it, I never regretted being in SCDF as a firefighter. I still starkly remember how much I wanted to go army instead cos it seems to be the most complete essential NS experience. I'm thankful that it's a blessing in disguise. Despite a few politics and a not very desirable or dream working environment, I enjoyed and felt an immense sense of pride everytime I put on the bunker gear. I miss being in the front seat of the LF as a commander, turning on the siren, yelling instructions behind, trying my best to communicate with Ops Centre through the motherfking matra which is bereft of connectivity, thinking of the things to do; and all these while embracing the wind as we speed down the road. I enjoyed the positive pressure put on me, and it's especially fun when you are turning out for calls with your favourite men. I miss the very interesting experiences that come with every fire call. I will never forget my proudest moment when I attended the 2 water rescue calls in a day, the exuberant feeling when I managed to locate the casualty in the water. I will never forget the near-misses in my first fire call, the Race Course Road fire. I remember how everyone was shouting aimlessly at the fire ground, how I held the nozzle for the first time and fought a fire above our heads, while tiles continue to be dislodged and fall freely from the roof. Then there is the Maude Road fire, when the lift just decided to die on us and we have to climb 14 stories to reach the out-of-control fire while residents are fleeing down the stairs. It was one of my tiring days, but en route back to station in the pumper, I forget how tired I am cos we were just laughing and giving each other a pat on the back. It was however a regret not to attend the second fire which occured simultaneously a few blocks away zz cannot complete my Double Trouble. And finally of cos, there is Pulau Bukom, needless to say a lifetime experience. There are simply too much experiences that I cannot possibly condense here haha shall do that when I'm not lazy next time.
Kk it's late I have work tmr shall talk to myself tmr or something.

It's confirmed man, six months for me to play! omg this is damn good this just plastered a smile all over my face i swear i want to play and happy hour everyday till i drop dead and tell myself that is seriously enough man. Fk A levels, i swear i will be back with utmost vengence and play my ass off! haha can't wait ah what's with all the sweet deals coming up, the prospect of monetary incentives from parents, i'm already drooling at the promised reward for nus admission woohoo

You know sometimes things are just really fked up when you do something but the other party just don't seem to care two hoots bout you, and it is done nicely in a arrogant manner. And there are also times when you have to eat humble pie, and acts like some guy who needs a companion badly, because screw it okay, you want it that way, we'll have it that way Anyway i make use of you, and you make use of me, and that's how things works right?
Good lord i seem to have alot of grievances huh. Anyway today is self proclaimed off day for me, i want to go out proper but mum not free too bad and i ended up having mini soccer game at the backyard with my bro that lasted for a retarded but fun hour plus!

Just another boring week ahead.
This week though- got my club card, a num spree, a toscano case(the way my mum got it was like wtf?), and new running shoes coming up!
Okay i really have to say this, i really need to find more help for maths in school, cos i'm not getting as much help as i would like!

I must really renouce all worldly pleasures man, damn it why must all the promised good deals pop up at this point, and they are so swarming my mind!
oh i can start my new exercise schedule alrdy, hopefully three times a week; i'm already raring to swim at the club tmr!

I seriously hate doing all the stupid stuff like pq and whatever not, such a bloody waste of time man, but thing is i have finished it! And i'm just gonna turn one blind eye to its lacklustre form, i redo it twice you know the stupid computer screw me up, so just good gracious to it.
I am keeping my fingers crossed, aiya keeping my entire hand crossed, that i can go to hk in dec with my mum to embark on my factory sprees with my aunt hahaha, then its family to gold coast maybe for new year, then to coveted Europe for next cny!

I hate school, and i hate myself for being just so naive and not studying hard enough at sec4.
Home, club, library~ the-soon-to-be tripartite of solace.
But on a brighter note i'm actually staring at more exercise avenues!